Nil by Mouth

ok – pretty much packed

ok – pretty much packed and pruned and prepared (yeah right). i have a short list of emergency tasks for tomorrow AM and then it’s off yonder.

things that i’m currently stressed about:

1. i screwed up huge with the post office on thursday. i’m praying it can be fixed in the morning. please please please…

2. if my anything happened to my “stuff bag” (as opposed to my “clothes bag”), i will be so bereft of valuable possessions that i would have to skip paris and just chuck it all in search of the maharishi or something

3. i’m going to miss my cat a lot a lot. a lot. i never thought i’d be so attached to a cat.

4. my landlord finding about the sublet and kicking the subletters, me, and the cat out

5. how dumb of me it was to eat pizza tonight, and how i need to stop being in denial about my lactose intolerance and just quit eating cheese.

6. i know, now i’m just whining…

so yes tomorrow afternoon – i will officially be an expatriate or expat as those in the know know. i will have to affix a lil french flag or baguette or something to the page in honor of my transformation.

i had a few freak-outs today, but i am in better spirits now and i am hoping i will be able to get to sleep tonight and not have a succession of anxiety dreams. i have also packed away all my blankets so that’s gonna sorta suck…

adieu ma petit vie de brooklyn

(i’m sure that’s all wrong)

• Jul 16