Nil by Mouth

yes it’s independence day and

yes it’s independence day and i actually came home, checked messages, email, etc. and began to read a link about Canada that i sent to a friend there. it made me, one slightly regret that i didn’t go up there to check it out, and two, slightly excited about defecting myself. yes it has happened that i am actually starting to look forward to leaving the good old USA.

was at the old rooftop at 53 N. 3rd to watch the fireworks as i had been for 4 years now. the first year was my partygirl year after college. (that was really fun). the second was like the hottest summer on the planet and when i went home there was blood on the stairwell and someone had been shot (that was awful). last year i stayed in my own neighborhood where the fireworks view was severely obstructed (ehh). this year it was a BBQ with D and J and then we drove over. rain and clouds, some of the usual crowd but many new faces as well. it didn’t feel like the 4th though. maybe because it was a wednesday, maybe it was because it was raining and cloudy. it just didn’t have that tingly feeling of celebrating the same thing with so many people across the country. that kinda cheesy, but kinda reassuring patriotism i guess it is. it just felt kinda.. umm.. obligatory.

so yes, i am starting to be excited about leaving.

like my friend N says, there’s nothing like living in another country to turn you into a real American. Amen.

• Jul 5